Eh I need help

[FJTT]

Im really going out of my mind here.I have OCD and which is probaly half the problem.I am posting this here because gunzfactor people are the only people that will probaly not think im crazy -_-. I have theese damn obessions
1. I think i will go to hell if i dont make a cross with my blood(i will explain this later)

2) I dont want to admit this but... i sort of think i have a demon inside of me(same i will explain this later mainly i think dont say OMG i have a demon.)


3) I feal somwhat depressed a lot.


To the story:

In spring I drew a heartagram(from band HIM) with my blood.(i didnt cut my self it was a scab.) i dont know why i just did. Later on when i wanted to get a HIm poster. so my Grandfather always wanting what is best for me wants to look at the poster then just because he sees the heartagram and jesus on the cross in the background he automaticly thinks the band is satanic then that got stuck in my head so i was thinking OMG i drew the heartagram with my blood but meanwhile i really knew that it wasnt but then again i wasn't 100% sure. so since my grandfather said it was a pentagram (which reprents the devil for people that dont know.) and now i think that since i drew it with my blood i have like somthing bad inside of me,evil. A lot of times I think what if this is just a dream and the evil has taken over me and put me into this dream of something. I know its sounds crazy but i just think that. I really need help but i dont know who to turn to Any person that knows me will think that im crazy who knows mabye i am i just feal depressed a lot. I have a theropist but i dont want to talk about that she'll send me to a sycoward.(probaly not buut i dont feal comforitable talking about it.) so do you think i need to just stop lestening to their music? idk who should i turn to?

I dont want spam here or mean comments I need advise. and for people thinking this is a joke its not im 100% serius.

[waterbuster]

-_- your an idiot.(lol, and Im the first to post. lucky me)

1. Never draw anything with bodily fluids.(gag*) Its not good. and blood rituals are a nasty thing to get into.

2. Assuming you only drew a heartagram, your not really in any danger. Since its a variation of a pentagram however, your father has reason to worry.

3. You have nothing to worry about. Its an iconic symbol used for a band. Show him the band. If he doesnt listen to reason then meh. His loss. But the thing you did wasnt demonic.(but the blood thing is wrong. so very very wrong.)

4. Demons enter the willing. Your not in any trouble as long as you refuse them in the name of God(or another holy entity).

6. pray to God for guidance. If you really believe you are in mortal danger, its the best thing to do. Makes ya feel better.

7. Your having a panic attack. Dont freak out, its probably nothing. Your parent DID have cause to worry, since the whole blood thing freaks most parents out.

8. A pentagram is an inverted star. It represents 2 horns, and 3 beards of the face of satan(basically his face). It IS evil, but you didnt draw it. No worries.

[FJTT]

Thanks so much and no im not an idiot im somewhat stupid and if you dont know ODC its probaly whats causing it. And for some reason i just did it... IDk why...... and no damn flaming its pisses me off. -_- and yes it was werid with blood now when i read it from another perosns point of veiw yea it is werid.

[OdinReborn]

Ok...look, if this is your first time posting your problems, then yes, it's understandable, but, this is your warning, and let me get this through to you - And understand that i'm not trying to be mean, i'm just saying. Don't shoot the messenger for this. Ok, here we go.

The Internet is NOT the place to post your personal problems. No one is a certified psychologist or psychiatrist, and the opinions of the people on the internet are solely based on their experiences and are not valid types of resources for trying to get over your personal problems. If you really require help, then go see an actual psychiatrist/shrink because they will help you FAR more then what 'we' can do.

And no, I don't think your crazy or blah-de-blah-blah, i'm just saying.

[ShikiXtohno]

Haha. Don't worry. The pentagram really isn't "satanic". We consider it to be because in the past we wanted to demonize some pagan symbols so the church started saying how satanic it is.

I drew crap in blood too when I had a scap. I read the oath thing and wondered how hard it would be so I tried it out while being bored in class. The blood would have gone to waste anyhow.

And no matter what works you do, it doesn't buy you a ticket to heaven. Going to heaven is based only on if you believe that Jesus died for your sins.

And why do you have that heart-gram as an avatar if you're so worried about this? That doesn't make much sense XD

[FJTT]

Originally Posted by OdinReborn

Ok...look, if this is your first time posting your problems, then yes, it's understandable, but, this is your warning, and let me get this through to you - And understand that i'm not trying to be mean, i'm just saying. Don't shoot the messenger for this. Ok, here we go.

The Internet is NOT the place to post your personal problems. No one is a certified psychologist or psychiatrist, and the opinions of the people on the internet are solely based on their experiences and are not valid types of resources for trying to get over your personal problems. If you really require help, then go see an actual psychiatrist/shrink because they will help you FAR more then what 'we' can do.

And no, I don't think your crazy or blah-de-blah-blah, i'm just saying.

I was asking what i should do not asking to solve it -_-

And no matter what works you do, it doesn't buy you a ticket to heaven. Going to heaven is based only on if you believe that Jesus died for your sins.

And why do you have that heart-gram as an avatar if you're so worried about this? That doesn't make much sense XD

yea i your right about some stuff i guess but you also have to be a good person xD. and i have it because i like the band its just that i dont like what i did.

[waterbuster]

Originally Posted by ShikiXtohno

Haha. Don't worry. The pentagram really isn't "satanic". We consider it to be because in the past we wanted to demonize some pagan symbols so the church started saying how satanic it is.

I drew crap in blood too when I had a scap. I read the oath thing and wondered how hard it would be so I tried it out while being bored in class. The blood would have gone to waste anyhow.

And no matter what works you do, it doesn't buy you a ticket to heaven. Going to heaven is based only on if you believe that Jesus died for your sins.

And why do you have that heart-gram as an avatar if you're so worried about this? That doesn't make much sense XD

Pentagrams are satanic. The inverted ones are, at least. The regular star = pagan. Upside down = satan.

[Ashlyed]

I believe as long as you accidently/not purposely draw it, then it is fine.

Because such act that connect you between "other realm" is obligated to a few rituals.

And, as I read some informations about Satanic rituals, at least beside drawing pentagram or the inverted star, you need baby blood, "flesh" party, personal commitments, and... rock band.

DON'T ask me how.

Much or less, the topic has been answered by waterbuster

Btw, speaking of depressed, I understand you buddy.. Living in educational environment surely dry up your soul

[Koreanpunk]

i am actually familiar with the disease OCD my cuzin suffers from it but not to an extreme it is in my opinion not severe lol. Anyways i wanna say, i don't think you have a demon in you, however, i disagree with what water says demons enter anyone. However, it is all just an opinion as well as, another comment when Jesus casted the legion of demons they went into the pigs, i doubt the pigs were willing. However, with your case I don't think you are crazy, I think your grandfather is alittle conservative probably to the extreme maybe even. I think, i dunno for sure if i had a demon expierence, but it scared the crap out of me and i don't wish to make it visible to everyone on gunzfactor, so if you want you can send me sum mail through gunzfactor, and i could tell you. I hope you feel better

[FJTT]

Originally Posted by Ashlyed

I believe as long as you accidently/not purposely draw it, then it is fine.

Because such act that connect you between "other realm" is obligated to a few rituals.

And, as I read some informations about Satanic rituals, at least beside drawing pentagram or the inverted star, you need baby blood, "flesh" party, personal commitments, and... rock band.

DON'T ask me how.

Much or less, the topic has been answered by waterbuster

Btw, speaking of depressed, I understand you buddy.. Living in educational environment surely dry up your soul

Wel i dindt plan for days whne i was bleeding i just ook a peice of paper and drew it. and thanks to all for the spourtive comments

now bed time -_-

[Anga]

Originally Posted by waterbuster

4. Demons enter the willing. Your not in any trouble as long as you refuse them in the name of God(or another holy entity).

That's the only thing in that post that bothers me.

They can hang around you without your knowledge or permission. Even if it's not considered being posessed they will follow you around.

FJTT doesn't have anything to worry about though. Until old ladies start doing the evil eye around you you're fine.

[Atlakai]

Ughh...

If you ever been to church at least once in your life, you would know there is a box where u can sit, u cant see each others faces, but you talk to the priest/father of the church.

Best person to talk to i think.

[waterbuster]

Originally Posted by Anga

That's the only thing in that post that bothers me.

They can hang around you without your knowledge or permission. Even if it's not considered being posessed they will follow you around.

Correct. But they cant posess you. Or make themselves known.

[CyberCow]

Get to know your therapist. Ask him questions. Try to be friends. That will make it more confertable to talk with him.

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